• Considering going back to some counseling, since I really don't feel right anymore. It's not the "crash and burn" scenario I had before my last round (last academic year), but I still feel like it's a viable forum to talk things out, especially considering I can't do that anyplace else.
• Just saw Superbad at the theater. I'm home by myself this weekend, as of this afternoon. So... 24 hours, maybe. Anyhow, I got out on my own, saw that. It's good. I don't know how Apatow and his actors, directors, scriptwriters, etc. pull it off every time. Granted, I liked Knocked Up, but Superbad gave me that awkward, wincing familiarity that came along with 40-Year-Old Virgin. It's territory I know too well. In that vein, it would be nice to have a thing going with some girl. I don't even need to date her, at this point; I am that desperate. Just... to know somebody was crushing on me, and that I might be flattering some girl by hanging out with her, instead of me feeling like I'm just intruding. It's not a well-articulated thought from me, but there it is. I'm yearning, a little.
• I don't know where my "crisis of faith" has gone, but it's a little better, I think. I'm pretty much back where I started, which mostly means I can't break this habit of religion, and that there's enough ambiguity on the whole "religion" subject that I don't have to feel weird about a healthy dose of agnosticism. At least that's one issue I can put off for a while...
• Classes aren't as bad as I expected. Lots of reading homework, but mostly okay. We'll see where they go, especially--get this--the class I thought was called "Assessment and Evaluation of Literature" is really called "Assessment and Evaluation of Literacy Education." Color me blindsided.
• The biggest issue on my plate is general loneliness and feeling out of touch. For instance, one of (I've realized) my best friends is moving out of the country soon. With this, I've realized who my real friends are, and how much I've missed out. This is a huge concern of mine, now. On one level, I don't want to become a loner, but on another equally important level I know why I've become this way: I'm sick and tired of all the stupid, irrelevant stuff that people want to do, and for some reason can't bear to exclude me. There's a genuine shortage of people who aren't just screwing around out there, and finding those people that aren't is a big challenge. I learned that in high school, and I thought I'd figured it out after I got to college. I was wrong: out of the frying pan and into the fire.

All right, gang. That's all I've got for now. Go see Superbad if you haven't already. It's a good movie, I think. Apatow & co. nail it again. Other than that, keep a lookout for the people that really matter in your life, and quit doing things in half-measures--make sure those people who matter get your attention, and not all the bullshit posers who just want to sponge off of you. And if you are one of those posers, stay out of my way.